Pam cast a demon of depression from me and I haven't been depressed since that day, two years ago.
Shortly after I aborted my first child, I left the boyfriend who had gotten me pregnant. I was so desperate to be loved, driven to be loved. It would lead me into a string of promiscuous relationships opening myself deeper to the depression demon. After my sister’s death, I rallied against these demonic entities, wanting to be free. I always had a yearning to be free from the sadness and the loneliness. I had let go of the thoughts of any religion at that point and decided to do things on my own. Shortly after, I had met someone who would eventually become my husband. He was a classic narcissist, but in a way, I wanted someone who was so involved with themselves that they couldn’t see how dirty and used I was. I was fully bulimic at the time, trying to keep my weight down so I would be attractive to my soon to be husband.
I believe now, that it was those lustful spirits in me that attracted men with the same spirits. I ended up becoming pregnant again and aborted it even though it was with the man I was going to marry. I was lonely and knew that there was really no love, I never felt loved but I married him anyway. I remember waking up on my wedding day and saying to myself “What have I done?” One of Satan’s big lies is, you better get married right now because there may not be anyone else who want’s you. So you settle for less than what God has for you. Not knowing it then, but God was going to save me, He knew my heart and He gave me two children as a blessing. Depression however was always with me. When, 8 years after our marriage I hit the wall. My husband was terrible to me, angry and mean. My children were out of control…I went outside and cried out with all my heart to the Lord…”SAVE ME! I cannot be saved unless you save me, I’m sorry for not listening to you!”
He did save me, the problem was, I had always been led by emotions and emotional experiences…so for all of those years I was led by the fake jesus and his demons, they were still working but now, they could use my salvation . This was the jesus who would fight with me to go from a Lutheran church, to a Charismatic Non Denominational church. It would make me cry every week in the shower. I bought into the lie, hook, line and sinker. Because of the false doctrine, and the emotional aspect, I went deeper into depression and the deeper I went into depression, the deeper I went into the church.
It was cyclical, looking for my answers there as if God was a “candy machine.” This is how they teach, ” just ask God, just tithe, just do what God want’s you to do, be faithful, go to more events, pray more, get on your knees more, dance more, get involved more etc etc etc.” It just put me into more and more bondage. At one point, driving home in my car after church, all I could think was, “it’s never going to happen, I am always going to be sick and depressed!” I wanted to believe there was a way, but I knew what I was doing wasn’t working. Only God could have opened my eyes to what was going on, I couldn’t have brought myself to see it. I remember a time in worship I was worshiping in full extension, arms over my head, lost, and I felt the Holy Spirit saying to me, “they worship me with their mouths, but their hearts are far away from me.”
Immediately my hands went down. It was from then on God began to reveal truths to me. Eventually, God brought me out and led me to Pam and to my freedom. Satan couldn’t stop what God had intended for me because He always knew my heart….there is hope for you too.
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