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Drug Addiction and the Religious Connection

I have never used drugs. What I know about addiction came from my experience as a therapist. But most of all, I have been  a wife of not one addict, but two of my 3 husbands were substance abusers.

 In 1996, I started a storefront church  called “Healing Waters” and its original members were primarily ex-offenders and addicts in recovery. So as a minister and a wife of a religious heroin addict, I got to see up front and personal how 2 wprks of the flesh are connected, namely idolators and drunkards from Paul’s list in Galatians 5.

I am joyous because the enemy can no longer deceive me! lol

Substance abuse ministry was planted into my spirit in 1985 by a supernatural sign—a dream where a 7 foot,baldheaded, muscular being loudly and boldly declared, “I am an angel sent from God to show you your future ministry.”This “angel” showed me a huge residential Christian rehabilitation center for ex-offenders and recovering addicts. In the center of it was a huge chapel. The rehab center was so large that I couldn’t figure out if it was one peice of land with several cottages and buildings on its grounds, or if the blueprint consisted of several individual sites around the country.Since my secular background includes writing proposals and obtaining large government grants in human services, I asked, ” Do I write a grant?” The “angel” bellowed loudly,”NOOOO!!!! This is God’s project and He shall fund it. I also received several prophetic “confirming signs” from others. More than one Christian woman with a prophecy or a vision uplifted prison ministry and substance abuse as paramount to my calling. One word of faith woman uttered a prophecy that I assumed was from God–a prophecy that I called “the 7 walls” where alcohol and drug addiction were at the top of a list of 7.

 So I was fully set up in the 80’s  by the supernatural signs of  the fallen angel  assigned to me to start  a church in 1996 with a sheepfold of addicts and ex-offenders. The irony was that the men who were the least religious were the ones who  prospered in the world. They used me to get established, but they stayed clean through the rooms of AA and NA while the religious ones continued to relapse. The ones who were devoted to the rooms would say on a Sunday morning, “we want to go to church but we have to go to a meeting.”  Looking back, they were right.  The organized  church is  ill equipped to deal with recovery from substance abuse or any other demonic bondage.

 Interestingly enough, the two who continued to relapse the most were my third husband Rich and one member who had been my right hand in ministry for 18 years, a man I’ll refer to as “George.”  In 2003, the Holy Spirit transmitted words that I didn’t want to hear. I was warned with a sign that went like this. “Both George and Rich were sent to you by the devil to destroy you.”

Since I received this revelation in the spirit, I continued to hope that “this was not a sign from the Lord.” Some have the notion that anything that sounds “negative” must be the devil and everything that sounds positive MUST be God. Well, it ain’t necessarily so. So I continued to “pray, watch and wait.”

 The first to be revealed as sent from the devil was George.

 George was rather visible and well known in the community. He could often be found drunk or zooted on crack, “preachin about Jesus and drunkenly telling everybody that he was a member of Healing Waters and Pastor Pam was his pastor.” Among the street people, George was known as “Preacher Man.” Like my husband, George was also in and out of rehabs and could barely stay clean and sober for more than a month at a time, yet he spoke in tongues fluently, sang beautifully, with tears rolling down

his face and the whole 9 yards. The truth is that any serious visitor to our church who was struggling to recover from drugs was in jeopardy to George. If I was not careful to protect them from him, at the end of the service, George might sneak any one of them into an alley behind the church, where he often hid to smoke crack or lift a pint to his head, of course— still toting his bible.

I reasoned to myself, “not only George but Rich also has to be revealed if this sign came from the Lord.” In love and with great faith for my marriage, I held on to a false hope as long as I could. Nevertheless,in 2005, it was clear. I knew. It was done. It was proven to me that without a doubt, my ex Rich was sent by the devil also. Then I reasoned again. Is it possible for a religious demon to send me two confirmed signs? Yes, it is very possible. So I can hear your question. “Pam, well, how did you find out the truth?”

Jesus made it simple. You shall know them by their fruit. With a form of godliness that denied the power of Jesus Christ of Nazareth,  both George and Rich had no fruit. Motivated by the religious demon, both men stuck close by me for the sole purpose of being “thorns in my flesh.”. Rich was worst than George but since he was my husband, I blinded myself to him for quite awhile. Both men could be super spiritual, having moments of apparently deep conviction and devotion to Christ. At one time, I thought Rich was more spiritual than I was because he talked about the Lord constantly and he was actually getting on my nerves!!! So watch those who are so spiritual, their heads in the clouds ALL the time yet they are of no earthly good!!!

The natural drunkard and the religious drunkard serve THE SAME IDOL!

 I realize now that both of Rich and George were worshipping the Fake Jesus. Rich even robbed both Healing Waters  and our home on several occasions. The vile, out of wack acts that Rich committed could fill a book all by themselves. You see, there was one important catch to the religious demon’s motivation.—a method to this apparent madness. In order to sell me on a drug addict as my “Mr. Right”, the religious demon seduced me to believe that “the great man” I had been waiting for was an ex-offender with substance abuse in his background—- a man of great intelligence and “potential” who would “co-pastor” with me in a substance abuse,ex-offender huge rehabilitation center, A person who would be able to lead and oversee ex-offenders and recovering addicts in the sheepfold–one who had “been there and done that” when I myself had no such background.

Besides these 2 men, there were several other “Christian addicts” that passed through Healing Waters.  They all spoke in tongues.  They all fell slain in the spirit.  They all did street ministry and evangelized other addicts into the church.  They all spoke against AA and NA.  Yet, they ALL  could not stay clean for more than 3 months at a time. 

 Why is this?

  Well, here is the first  connection.  Falling slain in the spirit, speaking in tongues, holy dancing, holy laughter and all of the rest of it is “spiritual drunkenness,” as all of the charasmatics admit and attest to.  People with the kundalini spirit believe that what they experience is being “drunk in the Holy Ghost,” when what really occurs is that demons enter into them because of their worship in the flesh, and not in the Spirit.  They that worship God must worship Him in spirit and in truth, and not in flesh and in lies. Drug addicts are used to lies and drug addicts under the influence of a substance enter into an altered state of consciousness and have euphoric experiences, similar to charismatics and holy rollers.

The second connection is that like drug and alcohol addiction, religion is habit forming and it causes the flesh “to feel good!”

The third connection is that the anti-Christ, whether he be Maitreya, the World Teacher, or whatever he calls himself when he is fully manifest to the world,— he shall speak to the spirits of all who are trained and skilled at entering into an altered state of consciousness. They will all believe that he is god almighty returned in the flesh. 

 The ASC is the enemy’s underlying reason for keeping the substance abuse industry AND charismatic witchcraft and communal intoxication alive and well!

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MY PERSONAL TESTIMONY OF HOW I GOT UN-DECEIVED

I have been saved, born again since Monday— March 29, 1977 at about 4pm. Yet, once I wrote the book “the Fake Jesus” about 5 years ago, I found myself cleaning out my own temple from the deceptive influence of Sananda, Ashtar and perhaps other so called ascended masters. You see, once the demons lost me to the One True God, they immediately set out to derail His plan for my life. Through dreams and other supernatural experiences, I was deceived on many levels for almost  three decades..For 3 years BEFORE I was saved, I was steeped in the occult. I had healing powers and I was able to see into the future through astrology and other means. Once saves, my occult powers carried over into Christianity without my knowledge primarily because I was ignorant of Satan’s devices.

Whether in ignorance or by design, when a person has made an appeal to Satan’s services by either a formal pact or an informal agreement, that person has unwittingly submitted himself to the powers of darkness.. When signs, wonders and strange religious practices that did not emanate from the Holy Ghost are accepted as divine, a spiritual invitation is made to the fake Jesus. Without hesitation, the fake Jesus pushes his way through the doors of your soul. . My testimony is too long for one blog. However for the sake of the subject matter at hand, I can testify that I was  one who ignorantly made an informal pact with the fake Jesus by not properly severing ALL of my ties to my pre-conversion practices of occultism and mediumship.

Through presumption, I assumed that once saved, ALL of my occultic practices of the past were behind me, since I had burned all of my astrology and occultic books in 1983. My personal testimony is a classic example of how the fake Jesus can fool a true Christian by deception, capitalizing on its target’s ignorance of certain spirital matters. Hosea’s word continues to ring true.(Hosea 4:6) God’s elect are overwhelmingly deceived and if we are not careful, ultimately destroyed by a lack of knowledge of how “all spiritual manifestations are NOT from God!”Another reason why I share various aspects of my own personal testimony is to give you hope and confidence that the principalities and the powers of heaven shall not win. We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony and I am an overcomer.

Here is just one of several examples. I received tongues at a meeting held in Albany New York through the ministry of the late Kenneth Hagin. Hagin is really the founder of the word of faith movement as it is operating today. I have no idea whether or not Hagin was a false prophet or a deceived one. I simply look around as I view Charismania, and I know Hagin by his fruits. Anyway, I never truly embraced the way that I received tongues because it had no resemblance to the way the early church received this gift as revealed in the book of Acts. Yet, I grew to speak prolifically, at my own will, what charismatics call in “a prayer language.”

The reason why I have not been convinced about tongues is that for 25 years, I was not  able to find a bonafide interpreter, nor was I able to interpret myself. So I ask, “Where are the interpreters?” The Holy Ghost does not expect me to throw away my commonsense. If I have prayed off and on for decades to receive the gift of interpretation of tongues as Paul suggests that we all do, 25 years  passed and I still found  no one, including myself to interpret my “prayer language”, good sense  suggesedt to me that the tongue that I received in 1983 is not from God. So if it is not from God, then who did it come from?

This books connects the dots between the church system, the new age movement and the ascended masters, aka the fallen angels.

Well, its obvious. It didn’t come from me. I suspect that it came from one of the Ascended Masters, perhaps Sananda or Ashtar. What would be the reason for the demons to desire to imitate tongues? Well, if we don’t know what we are saying when we speak in an “unknown” tongue, we could very possibly be used by demoinic beings to “decree and declare” that their will, purposes and agenda be done on earth, rather than that of the will of the Father of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, the One, True and Only Creator–the one that Lucifer rebelled against in the first place.

In conclusion, I have been involved in almost all of what is passing itself off today as emanating from the Holy Ghost. Early on, I was groaning and weeping in very strange ways beginning in 1979.. Kenneth Copeland provided me with the explanation that I was looking for, confirming to me that my strange experience was a manifestation of intercessory prayer. Kenneth taught that the strange weeping and groaning that I did was a sacrificial work for the lost and the bound, emanating in travail from the Holy Ghost. TD Jakes and his “wailing women” seminars concur with Copeland. So Copeland, Jakes and others had  me convinced that God was using my travail to break yokes and bondages, ie. setting captives free. Since I believed that the Holy Ghost was using me to intercede, it is only natural that I held on to this strange work.

My mind was certainly unfruitful when I travailed and so often I tried to guess the reason behind it. I convinced myself that much of my groaning and weeping was for sinning preachers to repent. If so, it did not work. They just kept on sinning. I also laughed wildly in the spirit before I even heard of Hagin and Brown’s practice of what is called “holy laughter.”. My laughter was different, as I believed that the Holy Ghost was using me to laugh at the devil. When I laughed, I cried also. I found several scriptures to support my style of holy laughter and so I never tried this phenomena to see if it be of God. I just assumed that it was. The only supernatural experiences that I have not personally experienced is holy dance and shouting, African American style. Perhaps that is because I have no cultural background in the South and I was not raised in an African American Church or any church. In other words, holy dancing was not a part of my ancestral upbringing.

Furthermore, even though demons could no longer “step into me and speak,” some of my mediumistic traits DID survive my conversion. Nevertheless, when a counterfeit was exposed by the Holy Ghost in recent years, I have been duty bound to remove it by repenting and disavowing it. For example, I could heal BEFORE I was converted. I sucked pain out of people with my hands, particularly my left hand, BEFORE I was converted—proof that my healing gift was mediumistic and not charismatic, NOT OF THE HOLY GHOST.

Once I realized that my healing gift was tainted, I have made every effort not to touch anyone unless I am sure that I am being led by God to do so. I know today that more was required. I have come to the conclusion that my healing gift was not from God and therefore I  vehemently repented, rebuked, resisted and renounced it. Perhaps the Lord will give me the true gift of healing from the Holy Ghost. Perhaps not. I just kept  on cleanin house as I press toward the mark of my high calling and truth flooded down upon me like rivers of living waters.. I resisted the devil and he fled from me.

Here is another example of my occultic powers influencing my Christian service. Since  I could see into the future through astrology and through dreams BEFORE I was converted,  I had never learned the absolute neccessity of trying the spirits to see if they be of God. As I look back over my Christian journey, some of my most significant dreams of future events that actually transpired were sent by the Fake Jesus. I see now with a clarity that I have never had before. The fake Jesus uses counterfeits of the Holy Ghost as “a hook.” Whenever I receive information  of a futuristic nature in a dream about people I know, I rebuked the spirit of divination. Now I rarely hear from this demon.

In the last seven years, when the Lord wants me to know the future, I just “KNOW IT.” Very quietly. Don’t have to see a thing. I walk in faith these days and I don’t have a need of knowing the future as I once did. I soberly remember the Lord’s warning: A PERVERSE NATION SEEKS AFTER A SIGN! So, yes, I can admit without reservation that I myself have been deceived by the fake Jesus, and it has taken all of 30 years to get clean. There is evidence that I am completely clean but seriously speaking, I can’t yet say that I am absolutely certain. I wait on the Lord for Him to expose what may yet need to be uncovered.

How do I feel as a dedicated believer in Jesus Christ of Nazareth, the Only and True Begotten Son of God who has been deceived by the Fake Jesus for decades? Do I feel like a failure,–fooled frustrated, faithless ? Bamboozled, run a muck? To that, I must say, emphatically NOOOOOOOO! I am joyous, relieved that real truth has truly revived  me and I am free at last!!!! .And I declare, ” BETTER LATE THAN NEVER!!!

You see, in my relentless search for truth, the Holy Ghost has granted me the wisdom to deny all mediumistic gifts once He has exposed them to me. However, He would not expose them to me until I was willing to humble myself, In this regard, humbling myself involved questioning every significant supernatural experience that I have had since I have been saved, including my conversion experience, which itself was “supernatural.” As such, the quality and consistency of the wisdom that I have received in the last 7 years as compared to the previous  27 years, is truly beyond comparison. And the wisdom of God just keeps on coming.

If you have been in the occult, you were in the hands of the fake Jesus. Once you became saved, the fake Jesus assigned a religious demon to you to attempt to make your Christian journey unfruitful. Help is available. Get in touch with me. Send an email to rescueonfb@icloud.comor call 888-818-1117

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