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Deliverance From Church Addiction


DELIVERANCE FROM CHURCH ADDICTION: An Excerpt from “Come out of Her, God’s People.” by Pam Sheppard


Deliverance from church is no easy feat because Church attendance can evolve into an addiction.  Once you get hooked, you need to be “detoxed.”  As substance abusers go into a 28-day detox to “get clean,” church addicts need to stay out of church for at least 28-30 days.  As creatures of habit, I have found that any addiction can be physically broken in that time period. Even so, once the 28 day fast is completed, the addiction in the soul is yet another story.  The mind, the heart and the emotions must be renewed and for that, a drug addict will go into either a 90 day out-patient facility or a 6 months residential program.

 So too with the church addict.  From 90 days to 6 months, perhaps a year, the church addict’s mind must be re-trained.  False doctrines and practices  that the churchgoer has believed in  for decades must be challenged so that the soul can be renewed.  As God Himself has compared false worship to prostitution or whoredom , I am not out of line in making a similar comparison.  A church addiction can be compared to “good sex” with someone you know does not really love you.  Simply put, you get hooked to the thrill and the feeling.  Those of us who have never “been there and done that” wonder what the thrill is for a masochist.  Masochism from a psychiatric perspective is defined as a condition in which sexual gratification depends on suffering, physical pain and humiliation gained from despair, deprivation, and degradation.  The perpetrator can be others or it can be self-inflicted. Unfortunately, masochists are known to find pleasure in self-denial and emotional pain.

I can relate on a spiritual level because sexual masochism is like self-imposed  martyrdom.  For example, it is not a part of my normal  personality  to tolerate a lack of regard or disrespect from anyone, yet I passively allowed myself to be frequently humiliated over a 25 year span by ignorant church bishops, elders and members who would have been of no consequence to me in the world. It is actually  in my  carnal nature to chew up the meat and spit out the bones of  folk like this.  But in the church, I allowed these abusers to ascend themselves over me  with their spiritual feet in my back, tacitly enduring  their verbal abuse and complete disregard of my personhood, over and over again. 

Why? Because I ignorantly assumed that I was “suffering for Christ.”  Notwithstanding, like a spiritual masochist, a sensual, carnal thrill was obtainable through believing that I was more righteous than they because I was faithfully  doing God’s will.  What a shock to find out after more than two decades, that “God never sent me there for ANY reason.” He simply used what the enemy meant for evil for my personal and spiritual good, so that I could be used by Him to help others “help themselves!” Nevertheless,  as one who was “addicted,” I never wanted to leave that Whore  on my own so God made HER  PUT ME OUT!!!! 

Ignorant of my own emotional condition, I foolishly  submitted myself to  the spiritual abuse that those I pastored inflicted upon me.  Whatever they needed, I was there for them. I spent quality time with most of them–shopping, vacations and other outings, cooking for them, you name it. I was at the jails, hospitals, homes.  I was a devoted pastor, never controlling or demanding with anyone.  I even came from behind the pulpit and taught them as Jesus did.  Yet none of my efforts bore any fruit in them  for Jesus Christ.

     The irony is that the devil used those I pastored in three different churches to try to cause me to change my definition of the word “pastor”.   Religious devils used church members  to try to beat me down with discouragement by causing them to treat me  with a lack of appreciation, regard and respect. In other words, I was not loved.  For some time, I thought it was because I am “not a man.”  I have seen men revered who were known to be homosexuals, abusers of all kinds.  But my gender was not the cause. The only distinction between me and them was that I was not raised in church and I came to know Jesus Christ outside of church walls.

  As I reflect, I do not recall that I ever really  pastored those who were truly saved.  Even when I started my own church in 1996, I  remained abused by people who actually  chose to follow me.  Yet, as I remember each one of them, I see no fruit for Jesus Christ. In spite of the fact that  I preached a powerful message, the word fell on ground that “was not good.”

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Why?  There is a simple answer, taken straight from the Lord’s own lips.  When folk are serving two masters, they end up hating one and loving the other. Therefore their hatred of me was not “personal.”  It was scriptural and it was prophetic.   The sheep I served  were serving two masters.  Since I belong to Christ,  I was despised. Therefore, it is understandable to me now, that  it was not God who called me to ministry while I was in the Denomination. I could be wrong but I don’t believe that  God  would  call anyone of His to serve Him  within such a filthy, corrupt system. 

 Once I embraced this truth, I realized that my situation can be compared to the first predicament of His servant Moses.  While he was in Egypt, Moses tried to help his own people but  he failed.  It was not until he was forced out of Egypt into the wilderness, that God prepared him for ministry.   In like manner today,  I believe that to be used by God effectively, one has to actually leave the organized church.

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FRUITS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT TEST

The SEW Training Program is about fruitbearing in Christ.

An examination of  whether or not the fruits of the Holy Spirit are being manifested in your life is one of the primary ways to examine whether or not you are truly saved or if you have been deceived into a false conversion.  When you consider a decorative bowlof fruit as a centerpeice on a dining room table, sometimes a plastic apple or orange looks so good from a distance, very often even better than the real thing.  You don’t find out that it is fake until you pick it up.  It is dead andd light weight, without the genuine smells and other qualities of a juicy peice of real fruit.  So too with spiritual fruit. So to examine and test whether or not you are really born again, we need to focus on the Lord’s own words. He said simply “you shall know them by their fruit.As recorded by Matthew in the 13th chapter, Jesus defined how we become born again.

  •  We hear the word.
  •  We understand it.
  •  We receive it into the good ground of our soul and our spirit.
  • We  receive the fruit of the Holy Ghost and
  • We become “fruitful.”

Therefore we need to know what fruit IS so that we can objectively  test whether our fruit is of the Holy Spirit or if it is fake fruit.

Here is where most professing Christians go wrong. We read Galatians 5 and we say to ourselves “Oh, I’m a loving person so I have the fruit of love. I don’t gossip or backbite and I am usually understanding and kind. I am also patient and peaceful, much more since “I accepted Jesus” then before, so I know I am saved. I don’t commit sins of the flesh so I am born again. This is error. People of other religions often do not  fornicate or indulge in the obvious sins of the flesh. Yet, like everyone else without Christ, they are lost sinners, separated from a holy and righteous God/n fact, ALL have sinned by their very nature, whether they actually DO the sinful act or not. As Jesus said, if a married man even looks lustfully at a woman without having sex, he is still an adulterer in the eyes of the Almighty.

What we need to understand is that the fruits of the Holy Spirit are not natural, human qualities. Since the seeds of these fruits are imparted to us at the exact moment of conversion, they are supernatural and they are divine.

 Here is a personal example.

Pam Sheppard, A wise, virtuous woman of God.

When I got saved, I hated white people. I was a racist. There were two little white boys that chased my 8-year-old daughter from the school bus to her door every day. These kids called her “nigger” every day. It was a Monday, March 29th, 1977 at 4pm. I had just gotten born again about 10 minutes before, so I was not standing at the bus stop waiting to protect my daughter as was my custom.  I heard my daughter banging on the door and there were the same two boys right behind her.  I scooped them both up in a hug, smeared my kisses on their cheeks and invited them in to have some milk and cookies. That ended the problem of those 2 little boys trying to hurt my child.  Then there was the time that the woman who stole my first husband from me was pregnant. She was the worst enemy I have ever had in my life, but in  my heart was complete forgiveness and love for her and her unborn child, a supernatural love that was beyond my human nature to even approximate. I went to her baring gifts for the unborn and sincerely asked her how I could help. Everyone who knew the former, unsaved Pam thought that I had lost my mind.  I did not. The love of God, the first fruit of the Spirit was shed abroad by the Holy Ghost into my spirit, empowering me to manifest the fruit of divine love for an enemy.

What you may be counting as fruit for Jesus Christ may simply be a work or ability of your own soul. Human beings have the power to change our attitudes, behaviors and even our personalities without God being involved in the change. We can stop using drugs by the power of our wills. We can pull ourselves up by our own boot straps.  I know for a fact, because this is what I had done BEFORE I was saved. I turned a streetwoman into an educated, prospering lady. When the Holy Ghost got a hold of me, He said “Pam, you took yourself out of the streets and ghetto life, but the streets and ghetto life are still IN you. You changed yourself from the outside in. I will change you from the inside out. Only I can turn you into a sinless, justified, sanctified virtuous woman. What you did was without ME. Not good enough. For without Jesus Christ, you can do nothing.”

In the SEW Program, we will help you  to prepare the ground of your spirit so that it can become good ground for receiving the fruits of the Holy Spirit. For more info, call 518-477-5759

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Delivered from Addictions and Finally Free: Part 1 By Minister Micael

Minister Micael

Dear reader, this is the story of my deliverance experience. I was constantly depressed before the year 2000. It got worst in junior high. And even more of a problem when I started drinking during the second half of high school. Then I fell into zombie mode, by way of drinking vodka most days, for the period of a year. I had the demon of death on me. I was in so much torment that I wanted to embrace death.
Some school days I’d stagger home, then pass out for the rest of the day. I would be worn out. Not able to address life, or be sober enough to see what was in front of me. After I came down from the effects of regular usage, I could hardly make it through the sober days. I could hardly cope, because of overwhelming anxiety and depression.
While I was liquored- up, I’d read a meditation book which the authors claimed to be inspired by angels. In addition, I would alternate my reading with a new-age occult book called the Ennegram. I was attempting to learn and understand myself into salvation. The reading material promoted the belief of mine that if I could only ” not be ignorant ” and ” know enough ” about my personality I could save myself from self-destruction; a belief in Gnosticism.
One day, after many years, having lessened my alcohol use, I witnessed a family member pass away as I stared at them. It was slightly traumatic…
A month later I admited I could not continue going on the same way and I knew I needed God’s help. I merely kept this stance in mind in December of 2009. While I was wandering around Youtube in mid 2010, I came across a well known Christian channel, and began to watch it regularly. Months went by, and I started seeking Jesus. A seed had been planted and started to grow…
My story of deliverance and true salvation will continue in my next article. Until then know this: if the Son has truly made you free you shall be free indeed! (John 8:36)
If you need deliverance, and are experiencing affliction of any kind, please call Sheppard’s Counseling Center now! Pam Sheppard, a true woman of God counseled me into true salvation. God is not a respecter of persons, he will do for you what he did for me. I look forward to meeting you again in Part 2….
To be continued…

Pam Sheppard, 30 years a minister for the Lord Jesus. If your under the bondage of addictions ,call her office now! (518)477-5759

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7 POINT PROFILE OF A RECOVERED PERSON

A person is recovered when he or she has taken back control of his own soul. Although Satan will do everything in his power to regain his control, a recovered person is sober not only as a drug or alcohol-free person, but he or she is vigilant, watchful and wise,— prepared for the demon’s counterattack.

Sheppard’s Counseling Center has developed a Christed centered recovery model called RECOVERY IN CHRIST OR THE RIC PROGRAM

Recovery in Christ is a manual of recovery from addiction and other bondages by Pam Sheppard

Although a recovered person is no longer an addict but a child of God, he or she is aware that there is a weakl based upon 7 keysness in his or her flesh that has a predisposition to relapse. Therefore, a recovered person has a relapse prevention plan that includesbut is not limited to:

1.living by God’s word—the person begins to live the reality of the cleansing power of the blood of Jesus Christ—that before he or she believed on Christ, he was an addict, but as a born again believer, he or she is washed, or in other words “clean”by faith in His word. (I
Corinthians 6;9-11)

2.delighting in the Lord—the person has pursued the fruit of joy and peace, by an active commitmentto lifestyle of prayer, praise and thanksgiving. His offering of praise to the Lord operates as a cover of\clothing that protects him or her from the return of  the “addiction spirit.” (Isaiah 6:3)

3.submitting to the cross-–the person has found out the root cause of his or her addiction by allowinghis flesh to be crucified. Whether or not addiction was linked to the sin of rebellion, selfi shness, selfcenteredness or pleasure seeking, he is committed to obey God’s word. The most important area of
discipline is that a recovered person has learned to control his tongue. The control of the tongue is the key to spiritual empowerment and recovery, because “if anyone does not stumble in word, he or she is a perfect man, able to bridle or control his own body, including his predisposition to addiction.” (James
3:2)

4.seeking right fellowship—the person has learned that to love the world is to be an enemy towards God. Therefore, he or she chooses his relationships not by the desires of his fl esh, but by the spirit. He or she will not seek counsel from the ungodly, nor stand in the way of sinners, or sit in the seat of the scornful. He or she has learned how to live among unbelievers without becoming “one” with them. He has learned how to overcome the pain of separating oneself from people of unhealthy influences and to do it with the wisdom, mercy and grace of God.

5.embracing the vision
— He views himself as an important member of the the Body of Jesus Christ, with a mission and a vision for service.  Armed with the courage of his own convictions, he is not easily discouraged, walking by faith and not by sight. Faithful and committed to the few things, he is committed to share his strengths and his struggles.

6.walking in the witness of the Spirit-–the person is blessed with a thirst for the Lord and His righteousness that has replaced his or her thirst for craving for the thing or substance that formerly had him or her bound and captive. As the scripture says: Be not drunk with wine but be fi lled with the
Spirit of God. As demonstrated by the words of the mouth and the selection of priorities, he or she has grown from having addiction or being clean and sober as the center of his life. As a result, He has overcome Satan by the word of his testimony. His testimony is a personal witness to the healing power of the Holy Spirit. His witness is capable of drawing others to the cross.

7.connecting with believers—He does not neglect meeting  with his brothers and sisters in Christ. Committed to his spiritual mentor and to other Christians, he comes together with the brethren to intensively explore his own character defects and to share his victories. Coming together online as oppsed to gathering face to face is acceptable.

Our ministers are trained  to help you stay strong, better than an AA sponsor. www.pamsheppard.com/online_ministers_available

 

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Drug Addiction and the Religious Connection

I have never used drugs. What I know about addiction came from my experience as a therapist. But most of all, I have been  a wife of not one addict, but two of my 3 husbands were substance abusers.

 In 1996, I started a storefront church  called “Healing Waters” and its original members were primarily ex-offenders and addicts in recovery. So as a minister and a wife of a religious heroin addict, I got to see up front and personal how 2 wprks of the flesh are connected, namely idolators and drunkards from Paul’s list in Galatians 5.

I am joyous because the enemy can no longer deceive me! lol

Substance abuse ministry was planted into my spirit in 1985 by a supernatural sign—a dream where a 7 foot,baldheaded, muscular being loudly and boldly declared, “I am an angel sent from God to show you your future ministry.”This “angel” showed me a huge residential Christian rehabilitation center for ex-offenders and recovering addicts. In the center of it was a huge chapel. The rehab center was so large that I couldn’t figure out if it was one peice of land with several cottages and buildings on its grounds, or if the blueprint consisted of several individual sites around the country.Since my secular background includes writing proposals and obtaining large government grants in human services, I asked, ” Do I write a grant?” The “angel” bellowed loudly,”NOOOO!!!! This is God’s project and He shall fund it. I also received several prophetic “confirming signs” from others. More than one Christian woman with a prophecy or a vision uplifted prison ministry and substance abuse as paramount to my calling. One word of faith woman uttered a prophecy that I assumed was from God–a prophecy that I called “the 7 walls” where alcohol and drug addiction were at the top of a list of 7.

 So I was fully set up in the 80’s  by the supernatural signs of  the fallen angel  assigned to me to start  a church in 1996 with a sheepfold of addicts and ex-offenders. The irony was that the men who were the least religious were the ones who  prospered in the world. They used me to get established, but they stayed clean through the rooms of AA and NA while the religious ones continued to relapse. The ones who were devoted to the rooms would say on a Sunday morning, “we want to go to church but we have to go to a meeting.”  Looking back, they were right.  The organized  church is  ill equipped to deal with recovery from substance abuse or any other demonic bondage.

 Interestingly enough, the two who continued to relapse the most were my third husband Rich and one member who had been my right hand in ministry for 18 years, a man I’ll refer to as “George.”  In 2003, the Holy Spirit transmitted words that I didn’t want to hear. I was warned with a sign that went like this. “Both George and Rich were sent to you by the devil to destroy you.”

Since I received this revelation in the spirit, I continued to hope that “this was not a sign from the Lord.” Some have the notion that anything that sounds “negative” must be the devil and everything that sounds positive MUST be God. Well, it ain’t necessarily so. So I continued to “pray, watch and wait.”

 The first to be revealed as sent from the devil was George.

 George was rather visible and well known in the community. He could often be found drunk or zooted on crack, “preachin about Jesus and drunkenly telling everybody that he was a member of Healing Waters and Pastor Pam was his pastor.” Among the street people, George was known as “Preacher Man.” Like my husband, George was also in and out of rehabs and could barely stay clean and sober for more than a month at a time, yet he spoke in tongues fluently, sang beautifully, with tears rolling down

his face and the whole 9 yards. The truth is that any serious visitor to our church who was struggling to recover from drugs was in jeopardy to George. If I was not careful to protect them from him, at the end of the service, George might sneak any one of them into an alley behind the church, where he often hid to smoke crack or lift a pint to his head, of course— still toting his bible.

I reasoned to myself, “not only George but Rich also has to be revealed if this sign came from the Lord.” In love and with great faith for my marriage, I held on to a false hope as long as I could. Nevertheless,in 2005, it was clear. I knew. It was done. It was proven to me that without a doubt, my ex Rich was sent by the devil also. Then I reasoned again. Is it possible for a religious demon to send me two confirmed signs? Yes, it is very possible. So I can hear your question. “Pam, well, how did you find out the truth?”

Jesus made it simple. You shall know them by their fruit. With a form of godliness that denied the power of Jesus Christ of Nazareth,  both George and Rich had no fruit. Motivated by the religious demon, both men stuck close by me for the sole purpose of being “thorns in my flesh.”. Rich was worst than George but since he was my husband, I blinded myself to him for quite awhile. Both men could be super spiritual, having moments of apparently deep conviction and devotion to Christ. At one time, I thought Rich was more spiritual than I was because he talked about the Lord constantly and he was actually getting on my nerves!!! So watch those who are so spiritual, their heads in the clouds ALL the time yet they are of no earthly good!!!

The natural drunkard and the religious drunkard serve THE SAME IDOL!

 I realize now that both of Rich and George were worshipping the Fake Jesus. Rich even robbed both Healing Waters  and our home on several occasions. The vile, out of wack acts that Rich committed could fill a book all by themselves. You see, there was one important catch to the religious demon’s motivation.—a method to this apparent madness. In order to sell me on a drug addict as my “Mr. Right”, the religious demon seduced me to believe that “the great man” I had been waiting for was an ex-offender with substance abuse in his background—- a man of great intelligence and “potential” who would “co-pastor” with me in a substance abuse,ex-offender huge rehabilitation center, A person who would be able to lead and oversee ex-offenders and recovering addicts in the sheepfold–one who had “been there and done that” when I myself had no such background.

Besides these 2 men, there were several other “Christian addicts” that passed through Healing Waters.  They all spoke in tongues.  They all fell slain in the spirit.  They all did street ministry and evangelized other addicts into the church.  They all spoke against AA and NA.  Yet, they ALL  could not stay clean for more than 3 months at a time. 

 Why is this?

  Well, here is the first  connection.  Falling slain in the spirit, speaking in tongues, holy dancing, holy laughter and all of the rest of it is “spiritual drunkenness,” as all of the charasmatics admit and attest to.  People with the kundalini spirit believe that what they experience is being “drunk in the Holy Ghost,” when what really occurs is that demons enter into them because of their worship in the flesh, and not in the Spirit.  They that worship God must worship Him in spirit and in truth, and not in flesh and in lies. Drug addicts are used to lies and drug addicts under the influence of a substance enter into an altered state of consciousness and have euphoric experiences, similar to charismatics and holy rollers.

The second connection is that like drug and alcohol addiction, religion is habit forming and it causes the flesh “to feel good!”

The third connection is that the anti-Christ, whether he be Maitreya, the World Teacher, or whatever he calls himself when he is fully manifest to the world,— he shall speak to the spirits of all who are trained and skilled at entering into an altered state of consciousness. They will all believe that he is god almighty returned in the flesh. 

 The ASC is the enemy’s underlying reason for keeping the substance abuse industry AND charismatic witchcraft and communal intoxication alive and well!

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