I have never used drugs. What I know about addiction came from my experience as a therapist. But most of all, I have been a wife of not one addict, but two of my 3 husbands were substance abusers.
In 1996, I started a storefront church called “Healing Waters” and its original members were primarily ex-offenders and addicts in recovery. So as a minister and a wife of a religious heroin addict, I got to see up front and personal how 2 wprks of the flesh are connected, namely idolators and drunkards from Paul’s list in Galatians 5.
I am joyous because the enemy can no longer deceive me! lol
Substance abuse ministry was planted into my spirit in 1985 by a supernatural sign—a dream where a 7 foot,baldheaded, muscular being loudly and boldly declared, “I am an angel sent from God to show you your future ministry.”This “angel” showed me a huge residential Christian rehabilitation center for ex-offenders and recovering addicts. In the center of it was a huge chapel. The rehab center was so large that I couldn’t figure out if it was one peice of land with several cottages and buildings on its grounds, or if the blueprint consisted of several individual sites around the country.Since my secular background includes writing proposals and obtaining large government grants in human services, I asked, ” Do I write a grant?” The “angel” bellowed loudly,”NOOOO!!!! This is God’s project and He shall fund it. I also received several prophetic “confirming signs” from others. More than one Christian woman with a prophecy or a vision uplifted prison ministry and substance abuse as paramount to my calling. One word of faith woman uttered a prophecy that I assumed was from God–a prophecy that I called “the 7 walls” where alcohol and drug addiction were at the top of a list of 7.
So I was fully set up in the 80’s by the supernatural signs of the fallen angel assigned to me to start a church in 1996 with a sheepfold of addicts and ex-offenders. The irony was that the men who were the least religious were the ones who prospered in the world. They used me to get established, but they stayed clean through the rooms of AA and NA while the religious ones continued to relapse. The ones who were devoted to the rooms would say on a Sunday morning, “we want to go to church but we have to go to a meeting.” Looking back, they were right. The organized church is ill equipped to deal with recovery from substance abuse or any other demonic bondage.
Interestingly enough, the two who continued to relapse the most were my third husband Rich and one member who had been my right hand in ministry for 18 years, a man I’ll refer to as “George.” In 2003, the Holy Spirit transmitted words that I didn’t want to hear. I was warned with a sign that went like this. “Both George and Rich were sent to you by the devil to destroy you.”
Since I received this revelation in the spirit, I continued to hope that “this was not a sign from the Lord.” Some have the notion that anything that sounds “negative” must be the devil and everything that sounds positive MUST be God. Well, it ain’t necessarily so. So I continued to “pray, watch and wait.”
The first to be revealed as sent from the devil was George.
George was rather visible and well known in the community. He could often be found drunk or zooted on crack, “preachin about Jesus and drunkenly telling everybody that he was a member of Healing Waters and Pastor Pam was his pastor.” Among the street people, George was known as “Preacher Man.” Like my husband, George was also in and out of rehabs and could barely stay clean and sober for more than a month at a time, yet he spoke in tongues fluently, sang beautifully, with tears rolling down
his face and the whole 9 yards. The truth is that any serious visitor to our church who was struggling to recover from drugs was in jeopardy to George. If I was not careful to protect them from him, at the end of the service, George might sneak any one of them into an alley behind the church, where he often hid to smoke crack or lift a pint to his head, of course— still toting his bible.
I reasoned to myself, “not only George but Rich also has to be revealed if this sign came from the Lord.” In love and with great faith for my marriage, I held on to a false hope as long as I could. Nevertheless,in 2005, it was clear. I knew. It was done. It was proven to me that without a doubt, my ex Rich was sent by the devil also. Then I reasoned again. Is it possible for a religious demon to send me two confirmed signs? Yes, it is very possible. So I can hear your question. “Pam, well, how did you find out the truth?”
Jesus made it simple. You shall know them by their fruit. With a form of godliness that denied the power of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, both George and Rich had no fruit. Motivated by the religious demon, both men stuck close by me for the sole purpose of being “thorns in my flesh.”. Rich was worst than George but since he was my husband, I blinded myself to him for quite awhile. Both men could be super spiritual, having moments of apparently deep conviction and devotion to Christ. At one time, I thought Rich was more spiritual than I was because he talked about the Lord constantly and he was actually getting on my nerves!!! So watch those who are so spiritual, their heads in the clouds ALL the time yet they are of no earthly good!!!
The natural drunkard and the religious drunkard serve THE SAME IDOL!
I realize now that both of Rich and George were worshipping the Fake Jesus. Rich even robbed both Healing Waters and our home on several occasions. The vile, out of wack acts that Rich committed could fill a book all by themselves. You see, there was one important catch to the religious demon’s motivation.—a method to this apparent madness. In order to sell me on a drug addict as my “Mr. Right”, the religious demon seduced me to believe that “the great man” I had been waiting for was an ex-offender with substance abuse in his background—- a man of great intelligence and “potential” who would “co-pastor” with me in a substance abuse,ex-offender huge rehabilitation center, A person who would be able to lead and oversee ex-offenders and recovering addicts in the sheepfold–one who had “been there and done that” when I myself had no such background.
Besides these 2 men, there were several other “Christian addicts” that passed through Healing Waters. They all spoke in tongues. They all fell slain in the spirit. They all did street ministry and evangelized other addicts into the church. They all spoke against AA and NA. Yet, they ALL could not stay clean for more than 3 months at a time.
Why is this?
Well, here is the first connection. Falling slain in the spirit, speaking in tongues, holy dancing, holy laughter and all of the rest of it is “spiritual drunkenness,” as all of the charasmatics admit and attest to. People with the kundalini spirit believe that what they experience is being “drunk in the Holy Ghost,” when what really occurs is that demons enter into them because of their worship in the flesh, and not in the Spirit. They that worship God must worship Him in spirit and in truth, and not in flesh and in lies. Drug addicts are used to lies and drug addicts under the influence of a substance enter into an altered state of consciousness and have euphoric experiences, similar to charismatics and holy rollers.
The second connection is that like drug and alcohol addiction, religion is habit forming and it causes the flesh “to feel good!”
The third connection is that the anti-Christ, whether he be Maitreya, the World Teacher, or whatever he calls himself when he is fully manifest to the world,— he shall speak to the spirits of all who are trained and skilled at entering into an altered state of consciousness. They will all believe that he is god almighty returned in the flesh.
The ASC is the enemy’s underlying reason for keeping the substance abuse industry AND charismatic witchcraft and communal intoxication alive and well!
By Pastor Pam
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